So I did it, I packed up the G6 and headed west. My roommate from college joined me on the journey. Three days of driving and a few stops at some fun roadside attractions later we made it to Phoenix in one piece. It’s been about a week and a half and I finally feel settled. While my roommate, Raelynn, was still here visiting we made a quick trip to Las Vegas, did some shopping and hit up a Diamondbacks game. This past weekend I again decided to take a drive, this time I ended up in Sierra Vista to visit my friend who moved out here in August. We went to a lake, went horseback riding and attending a wedding. But now the fun is over and it’s time to get down to business and the reason I moved out here, it’s time to find a job and time to start living. Not that I wasn’t living before but I wasn’t taking risks and trying anything new and now is the time to start doing that. So I better get off of here and get back to the resumes and cover letters. Hopefully my next post I’ll have good news of employment.
It has been awhile since my last post, months actually. Since leaving Hawaii I have been working feverishly at two mediocre jobs, although these jobs aren’t my chosen career path they have helped me acquire a savings. A savings that I will soon be spending to fund my move out west. In less than two weeks I will be packing up my car and heading out on my next life adventure. I am absolutely unprepared for this adventure. All I have is a place to stay and a car. Excited, scared, hopeful, sad, curious and ready are a sliver of the emotions I am feeling right now, but today is also a sad day for other reasons. For the last three weeks my brother, sister-in-law and baby Autumn have been home and filling my life with joy, fun, diaper changes, late nights and bottles. They have left their Hawaiian home and, after a couple week stop in the Yoop, will be settling into a new life in Connecticut. They have a baby and move closer to home and I head the opposite direction, I guess that is how life works. Tomorrow I will awake early and head to work for 7am so my goodbye will be quick and as painless as I can make it, I’m not big on the whole crying thing but I do it and I hate it and I don’t want anyone to see it. The plan is to get busy with work early in the morning and get on with living. Shortly I will be saying goodbyes again to my family and friends and even though I said goodbye to them last year, this time it’s harder, it has more of a permanent feel to it and that scares me because as much as this place holds me back it is my home and the love I have for it is a whole lot. I am already missing my niece and she is right down the hall from it. I don’t know when I will see her next but hopefully it will be soon. I see in this post that I used the word hopefully a lot, but it’s good to be full of hope. I hope this move is the right thing to do, I hope I find a good job soon, I hope I can visit my family in the Yoop and in Connecticut plenty of times and most of all I hope the vision I have of myself and my future out west comes true, in simpler terms and not to sound too corny I hope my dreams do come true. With lots of dreams dancing around my head I will sleep with hope tonight, from the yoop, but not for long, goodnight.
Ok, so I’ve been back in Michigan a little over a month and it’s the same old shit different day. I’m back to working a part-time job with a part-time paycheck with amazing people. Seriously I love the people I work with and I really do enjoy my job. I just feel that I’m sitting on thousands of dollars worth of student loans and my degree is collecting dust. It’s time to put on my big girl pants and start real life. So that is what I’ve decided to do. First step a resume makeover. My old resume was good but it’s time for something new, something fresh, something that screams HELLO I’M COURTNEY EAGLE HIRE ME I’M AWESOME! So now that the first step has been taken care of, step two is to put it out there with some good vibes and see what I can catch. I’m ready for this, I’m ready to leave the Midwest and make things happen for myself. I have always had big dreams now it’s time to make them happen. So I will probably fall flat on my ass, but that’s ok cause it’s big and it’ll cushion the blow. Now I just got to do it, pack it all up and head west, not as far west as I went last time though, I’m done with islands for a little bit.
Well this is it, my last official post from Hawaii. You see some things just weren’t working out here, mainly me being broke. Hawaii is expensive and I am cheap these things do not really mesh well. After much consideration and a few restless nights I decided the best move for me is to head back to Michigan. It’s ok folks because I have a new plan, one that I am excited about. I’m going to work for a while, then move out west to Arizona. I have a very dear friend who will be living out there and also I have family that lives out there, family that I am close with and talk to almost every day. The Arizona plan was actually my original plan until Hawaii came up. I do not regret my three months in Hawaii it has given me time to think and relax. For a long time after graduating college I felt lost. What do I do next? Shouldn’t I get a job with my degree? What the hell am I doing? Was the last four years a waste? Needless to say I still don’t have answers to these questions, but what I do know is that these questions aren’t annoying me as much as they used to. If there is one thing I’ve learned from island life it is that I need to relax and just take things as they come, I’m young and I have time to figure out what my next step is. So for now I need to just take a breath and start following the road ahead of me and when I come to a fork I’ll figure it out when I get there. As of now my road is leading me home then after a few month pit stop I’ll be on my way west and discover what I’m made of. They say not knowing is half the adventure, well for me its about ¾ of the adventure.
So I finished watching Dawson’s Creek just in time to see the marriage of TomKat unfold. It would be the perfect time for a Dawson/Joey reunion and Katie can be with her true soul mate, James Van Der Beek. I’m sure I’m not the only one with this secret hope. I know Joey and Pacey were meant to be together but I don’t see the Joshua Jackson/Diane Kruger relationship ending anytime soon so James is the next best choice for Katie and Suri. Now that Dawson’s Creek is in my past (tear) I have had more time to explore Hawaii. I had my first experience paddle boarding and it was interesting, but also fun. The water was this brilliant light aqua color and so clear, which was good because it made it easier to watch our for sharks. My friend and I rode together on one board and her sister was on another board. The wind was fierce that day and we ended up getting blown way out of the assigned paddle boarding area, but it was ok because we got a free boat ride out of it. The lifeguard had to come pick us up and bring us back to the designated area. Once there I got on a board by myself and was able to stand up and paddle my unstable ass a few feet before I splashed into the Pacific. A few more tries and the task became easier. It was a sunny Hawaiian day of fun. I very much enjoyed paddle boarding and even though it left me with a wicked sunburn on my back which resulted in a week of peeling it is something I’d love to do again and again.
All right, ok, I have been severely slacking in the blog posting area, but I will do my best to get my ass in gear. I’m currently writing a post as we speak but I will have to finish it in the moring, because there is so much more I want to say but I can’t keep my tired eyes open. Goodnight.